||[May. 1st, 2011|10:05 am]
Whenever i need a quick pick me up, i like to envision myself as a drunk socialite who duels other socialites for inane reasons and shoots them in the chest.
As opposed to be me being a drunk antisocialite who internet fights with other aspies and wants to shoot everyone in the face.
I have such a huge longing for chaos and humanlessness that i think it's starting to peak out beneath the cracks. And by starting i mean it's been happening for about 15 years.
Typically i would post this on facebook since that's the thing now-a-days, but there's girls i'm friends with that i want to sleep with and i don't want them know i'm a psychopath on the verge of outward revolution.
I think this just may turn into a inward record of me losing it.
I fear i'm turning into something that mirrors Patrick Bateman.