||[May. 13th, 2011|10:44 pm]
In the end i guess i'm just kind of speechless. I'm really unsure what to say. Joe was a man of incredible character. He had a weight about himself that would almost seem oppressive. But he was nice and kind and loved everybody. I honestly couldn't go about finding a better representative of man kind other than joe. He had all the qualities that you would want in a person.
I should start with a story. I remember once Joe was in a bad way, just dating a terrible cunt of a woman. I told him in order to deal with such a problem you should result to anger. He expressed to me that he had not ever felt anger before. So i pushed him, and i pushed him hard. Joe socked me in my face. It was bitter sweet. In that moment he had gained the confidence he needed to deal with his problems, but also in that moment i had tarnished him. Joe was a beautiful creature, and i had taught him how to be ugly. It was awful and i regret it to this day.
I can't express how amazing joe was. God himself would look down and think "man, that's a really cool guy." You could talk to him about anything. He always took the position of the "wise hermit" or the venerable old crow. He was always more than what he seemed. I think i'll miss his laugh the most. He had sort of a hehhhhhehehheheheheheheh kind of laugh. Always responding to the wacky shit i would say with a sort of reluctance. I guess he understood what it meant to be kind of weird and he had sort of a bond with me.
I just can't fucking believe it. "Joe's dead.", "Joe died today." I've said it over and over when i was calling people to let them know. What a terrible life we lead. I feel weird now, logging onto wow, to see joe's character grayed out. It's like he's haunting me via video game.
I'm just at a loss. I can't craft anything worthy of joe. He was just an awesome guy. The world got incredibly dark. Joe was always an eternal optimist. It was very comforting. I've always been kind of a doom and gloom type guy, and joe was always a refreshing outlook.